I have been photographing Vanessa since Alina was in the belly. It’s so wonderful to watch this family grow. Vanessa has a wonderful blog that I follow called De Su Mama where she documents her love of everything from literature to her family. I was lucky enough to connect with them on a visit when they came out from their home in Nevada. I am proud that she decided to use these images for the branding of her blog and that she trusted me to bring her vision to life. Isn’t her family gorgeous!

I just developed a bunch of rolls of film. I take my Eos 3 film camera around sometimes. These photos were taken with expired fuji 400 film. I love the grainy look of them. The colors aren’t perfect but these are unedited and like art to me. They make me happy. I need to shoot film way more often. I adore it!

Letty is one of my best friends from high school. We have kept in touch through the years  and I am in awe and completely inspired by the mother, wife and woman that she is.  I am so lucky that I have been able to document the girls as they grow.

I stopped by her house on the way home from vacation this summer. I was excited to see them.  We drove 8 hours  straight to get to them , we couldnt take any breaks because I did not want to waste any  light.  True and my hubby were pretty awesome to not complain lol!

She had told me there was some pretty spots around her house.  On the drive I tried to envision what it may be like….. Well,once I was in her gated community I was floored by the amazing surroundings. I was in picture heaven!   Her baby girls are so gorgeous, and she has a wonderful husband!  I had fantastic time. Best of all was getting to spend the evening together with my boys and her girls. Her are some of my favorites from the afternoon <3

***A note to Letty

Amiga, I just want to say I love you to pieces. Thank you for being the best friend a girl could ask for. I am so proud of all your accomplishments and where you are today. It’s more than we could have ever hoped to dream for laying on the floor as teenagers taking about the future… Te quiero por siempe.

Sometimes when I want to pull my hair out that things aren’t going my way, or I feel like I cannot do anything right, I stop and I take a deep breath and pray. God is so faithful in answering prayers. The reason I know this is because, I always wanted to be a mama. My husband and I tried for a very long time to have a baby. I was so beyond thrilled when I finally found out I was pregnant. He was born one month after our 12 year wedding anniversary. My son has been the greatest blessing I could ever ask for. He fills my heart to the brim with pure love. Time seems to be flying by now that I am a mom. I wish it would slow down. I try and savor the little things.
He makes me laugh until my stomach hurts. He makes me love until my heart feels like it can explode. One of the best days I have ever had was recently, it was a day when we were shopping at Target and all of a sudden he bursts into a song he made up….. He started singing “spectacular mama, spectacular mama, spppppecccccccaaaacularrrrrr maaaaammma, hmm hmm hmm. I about cried! It was the sweetest thing ever. He was singing it at the top of his lungs and all the shoppers in the aisles were smiling and listening. I don’t want to ever forget moments like this. I want to savor it always.
So when I feel like I am a failure, I can’t be as good as others, I am not a good enough person, I am not talented enough, I will try and remember the one thing I can do right is be a loving mom. I am good enough, I am blessed. I have God’s amazing grace to be in awe of. At the end of the day, I just hope I can be a spectacular Mama.